Caire- Something New

At the beginning of my high school career at Chapelle, I was stuck in a funk that I could not I could not shake because I felt alone. My boyfriend, now ex-boyfriend, was someone I was comfortable with and he broke up with me for someone else during the crucial transition into high school. Once we were through, I felt like I had no one to talk to other than my parents. My parents could only help so much because they could not come to school with me. I did not know anyone at Chapelle, and the people I did know, I was trying to get away from. The group of girls that followed me from my tiny grammar school to the much larger Chapelle, were the snobby people who did not care if they hurt your feelings. I was desperate to get away from them because I had had enough of their drama.

A few weeks into my freshmen year, I actually found people to sit with at lunch. They were two people who I knew from St. Ann, the school I went to before I moved to LaPlace, Marissa Fabacher and Shelby Delery. They were wonderful and accepted me, but something in me wanted to be surrounded by more friendships than just two people. One day, while I was in my Independent Studies class, a girl named Emily told me that I should come outside and sit with her and her group. She wanted me to invite the other two girls I sat with at lunch, too. New things really scare me, so part of me was telling me not to even consider the change in lunch group.

Change, in general, scares me. Whether it is a new house, new school, or new people, I will be feel very uncomfortable with the new that now have to get used to. While I was sitting in my independent Studies class, I started to think about the new faces that I could be possibly sitting with for lunch everyday for the rest of high school. It was scary because I did not know them nor did I know if I could even trust this new group. I decided I would pretend to forget and not go over to find Emily's group the next day. I would only go sit with them if Emily were to remind me in class or if she were to see me at lunch.

The next day at lunch, I saw Emily waving at me to sit with her. I walked over with the intention to avoid making any new enemies, rather than making new friends. I cannot remember what we talked about that day, but I do remember how much we laughed. Every single one of us in that group of six bonded in just one hour. I was finally surrounded with what I actually needed, friendship.

I am still afraid of new things, like settling on a major in college because I just do not know if I will be able to support myself with the job I receive, raise a family, and have a relaxed retirement life. Life throws these unknown things at every individual, and the individual has the job of making whatever decision he/she wants. I am so glad that I made the decision to sit with Emily's lunch group. I finally got away from those snobby people I called  "friends" and found the friendship I desperately needed.